我相信!

很久都没有这种热泪奔腾的感觉了,相信奇迹的感觉!相信自己可以的感觉!

每次觉得很累,很沮丧,甚至认为自己正在受罪的时候,我都会告诉自己说,加油!你可以的! 因为我知道不經一番寒徹骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香.

我命没比人好,我不怨天尤人!我也不认命,因为我知道有些东西我还是可以掌握的!至于我掌握不到的,我也不强求!

加油!因为我相信!

I Dreamed a Dream

Am leaving the country in less than 48 hours now.

Just tuned in to youtube and watched Susan Boyle performing this song in last year British Got Talent show. It made me realised again that age doesn;t really matter if you are serious in pursuing your dream. Same that applies to me and am pursuing what I want in life now.

There are always challenges ahead that I may not forsee, however, am always believe in my capacity in coping every single obstacle.

Let's embrace this song again.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they turn your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

And still I dream he’d come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

同一个世界，同一个梦想

080808，8。08分，北京奥运会正式开幕。。

北京欢迎你！！！！！

还好我赶得及回家看到李宁点燃圣火的那一刻，真得很感动，震撼和激动。。

主题曲：我和你 - 很好听，很有意思。。

我和你，心连心，同住地球村，为梦想，千里行，相会在北京。
来吧！朋友，伸出你的手，我和你，心连心，永远一家人。
　　
You and Me　From one world We are family
Travel dream
A thousand miles Meeting in Beijing
Come together
Put your hand in mine
You and Me　From one world We are family

一段我觉得很感动的致词：

第29届奥林匹克运动会组织委员会主席刘淇先生的致词：

尊敬的胡锦涛主席和夫人，尊敬的罗格主席和夫人，尊敬的各位来宾，女士们，先生们，朋友们，今天来自奥林匹亚的圣火跨越五大洲四大洋，将在这里熊熊燃起，在这激动人心的历史时刻，我谨代表第29届奥林匹克运动会组织委员会向来自世界各国家地区的运动员、教练员和来宾，表示热烈地欢迎！向国际奥林匹克委员会，各国际单项体育组织，向参与奥运会筹办的建设者和工作者，向所有关心支持北京奥运会的朋友们表示衷心地感谢！

举办奥运会是中华儿女的百年梦想。七年前，13亿中国人民与奥运有一个美好的约定，从那时起，在国际奥委会的指导帮助下，中国政府和人民满怀激情，以最大的努力实践“绿色奥运、科技奥运、人文奥运”理念，认真做好筹办工作，兑现向国际社会做出的郑重承诺，使奥林匹克精神在中华大地得到了更广泛的传播。在我国四川发生特大地震灾害后，国际社会和国际奥委会的支持和援助，使中国人民感到温暖，也使我们增强了重建美好家园，办好北京奥运会的信心，奥林匹克运动的魅力在于它巨大的包容力，今天全世界204个国家地区，不同民族，不同宗教信仰的人民相聚在五环旗下，增进了解，加深友谊，共同奏响同一个世界，同一个梦想的乐章。奥林匹克精神的真谛在于追求以人为本，实现人的自我超越和自我完善，每一位运动员都将在公平竞争的环境中展现精湛的技艺，迸发参与的激情，创造心中向往的辉煌。北京奥运会的重要使命在于促进世界各国文化的交流，我们真诚地希望中华民族悠久的历史文化，充满生机活力的城市和农村，热情好客的人民，能够给朋友们留下美好的记忆。

朋友们，北京欢迎你。Welcome to Beijng！

我想全球的华人也会为中国感到骄傲。。中国和马来西亚的健儿们加油！！

同一个世界，同一个梦想！！！

做个快乐的开心人

站在十字路口

望左，望右，望上，望下

往往很多选择

或许对已选择的选择没信心吧

不是不能接受

只是已经不会面对

现实社会太复杂了吧。。

做人真的可以很简单

如果可以

隐居也不错。。

在海边盖间屋子。。

早上可以晒晒太阳。。

中午可以在椰树下读书上网。。

下午可以跟爱人小孩漫步沙滩。。

每天做自己喜欢的事情。。

无拘无束，没人去理会。。

不用跟任何人交待。。。

做个快乐的开心人。。

一定会很写意。。。。

Yeah Magazine Issue 213 - I am there!!!!

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Check me out...My appearance in this issue Yeah Magazine (No 213)....as HOST of Dyue Genki Girls Search ....

hehe....

Related Post:

主持人出山了。 - The Returning of the HOST

主持人出山了。 - The Returning of the HOST

首先，谢谢喜悦山球网(www.dyuelife.com) 给了我一个机会，让我当一个喜悦元气美女12强选拔赛的花絮主持人。有人问我：你会紧张吗？我只是点头微笑。。心理暗想：当然不会啦。。我一抓麦克风就会发狂。。。哈哈。。

First of all, I would like to thank Dyue Advertising Portal (www.dyuelife.com) for giving me an opportunity to host on Dyue Genki Girl Search Top 12 Finalist Audition. People asked me: Do you feel nervous? I was just nodded with smile. I was thinking, how am I going to be nervous, because once I grab the microphone, I will be crazy…haha…

话说回来，好久没抓麦克风了发狂了。。最后一次发狂应该是STARCELEB的时候吧。。跟着那班参赛者一起，真的感觉还瞒棒的。。。记得最后一次做主持，应该是上个月，为喜悦沙球网做个开幕礼的的主持，是属于比较FORMAL的。。。

Well, it’s quite a long time I didn’t host wildly…remember the last time that I totally host wildly was during StarCeleb. And together with the other contestants, it was a good memory….the last time I lost, should be sometime around last month, host for Dyue Advertising Portal the opening ceremony ooo….

这次做主持感觉还挺好。。也看到了自己瞒害怕但也厅欣赏的杨国忠老师(之前在明星偶像领教过他的毒舌，也因此，我痛定思痛，在作出改变，才有今天的造型哦)。。因他是次比赛的评审之一。。。

I was having a great time hosting…Except that I met Charles Jong, he was one of the judges for Dyue Genki Girl Search Contest…I actually a bit scared of him but thanked him as well…his words to me during last year during Staridol Competition really enlightened me….

其实，我对主持及演艺还是抱着希望的。。但我也必须坦然接受，现在无论是主持界或娱乐界，只要年轻貌美帅就占上风。。。可惜我两者都不是。。但也很难讲。。如果真的碰到了一个机会，有人会赏识自己的才华，梦想还是会实现的。。。不论是小角色，小小主持，我也心满意足了。。。(注：我每次都是酱来安慰自己) 哈哈。。

Till date, I am still having my dreams towards hosting and acting….however, I have to accept a fact that no matter is in the entertainment industry, outlook and age do matters..I don’t really have the advantage on those two….Still, I am putting hope on it…I always feel that I just need somebody who really can see how good I can act and host, somebody know my talent and polish it….no matter how hard the path, I will still get through it…(PS: I always console myself with this)….haha…

天亮了，梦还没醒，有梦的感觉是最好的。。。。

The day is bright enough; I am still in my dreamt….The feeling of having a dream is nice….

(照片要来了。。。)

(Stay tuned for the pictures)

5568

还以为我可以拿到5566这个号码，因为在我前面登记那个是拿着5565的号码，但是当登记面试时，突然间工作人员给我了这个5568。。

我又在追梦了。。

考虑了很久，最后才决定最后一次参加ASTRO新秀大赛(在不参加就超龄了) 。。

星期六准准10点，我到达PARK ROYAL酒店。。鬼咯。。人山人海。。我快快拿了表格排队。。怎知自己又蠢到没有复印IC。。(站在我前面那个说要印IC，我说网上都没讲要。。网上写有兴趣的朋友你必须准备2首自选歌曲（慢歌及快歌 / 清唱方式），同时携带身份证、报生纸、个人全身及半身4R照片，前往以下指定地点进行试音/面试更多详情，请浏览Astro网站www.astro.com.my/asq 或《Astro新秀大赛2008》的宣传片段。事后我朋友也骂我猪，IC影印本肯定是要的。。我真的太天真了。。)

当我正要回去排队时，这次就惨了。。人山人海。。我也不知排那里。。就看到好像有很多队伍。。然后就跟着一条最像队伍的队伍排。。事后才听说前面好像有人乱乱插队。。我从10。30早上开始排队，到3。45下午才拿到号码。。然后最后等到晚上8点多的时候，工作人员说。。评审累了，已经听到不耐烦了，一下就DING了。。你们可以考虑明天来。。你们明天来，我们会让你先唱。。

听到了这个消息，我顿时感到很难过。。因为还没来面试时，我告诉自己，要是今天唱不到，我明天不会在来。。因为我的原则就是今日事今日毕。除非是天灾人祸，要不然怎样都要在今天完成事情。要是不是我的问题而完成不到任务，那么就不应该把任务推倒明天做。。毕竟明天还有明天的事情要办？难道那件事重要过自己的梦想？从整个排队拿号码的过程，我已经知道这个平台或许不是我的平台。。要是好友K听到了，他肯定骂鬼我，然后讲我牛。。

我就是一个表演者。。一个很爱表演的人。。毕竟我一直都有在练歌，练习主持，有时自己串些角色练习自己演技。。为的就是要得到一个伯乐。。找到一个机会。。平台。。一个会欣赏我的人。。我不敢说自己的才华死鬼好，但是肯定不差。。我外貌的确是不出众，但又怎么样，难道我的外貌和年龄真的那么重要，而盖过我的才华吗？举例：新加坡一些明星，并不是帅哥美女。。我不是自我安慰，还是什么。。实事求是而已。。

我曾经跟一位朋友说过：我就是爱演。。。我喜欢表演。。当每次比赛面试是一个表演。。所以当你不把胜负看到那么重的时候，你更能无忧无虑的表演自己。。充分发挥自己的才华。。

有人说：叫我收当。。

我说：我不会放弃爱演的热诚。。我还是会加油。。

5568，一个我永远都会记得的号码。。。因为我拿到了号码，但并没进去面试。。原则问题。。。。

小安，加油！

My Last Appearance in StarCeleb

The following videos are my last appearance in StarCeleb…

Although a lot people claim that I have a chance to make it to TOP24, however, I didn’t made it.

Looking at the videos below, well, all I can say is: I hope to see my hosting part of the show instead of me playing game session in the show.

Since this is the outcome, I will accept the fact that I am OUT and improve myself in the future competition.

Thanks to my friends who had been supporting me along the journey.

And after viewing the show, I welcome comment for you so that I can improve in future.

Love ya…Thanks :)

Part 1:

Part 2:

Part 3:

Good Bye to my Stardom in StarCeleb

Today, the result for Group B to top 24 for StarCeleb had been announced.

I am OUT of the competition again.

However, I felt very calm and thankful for being walking so far in this competition.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank:

Organiser(Centurise Media), Production team, Judges Miki, Jay, and my fellow top60 contestants…

Congratulation to those top24…I am very happy for you all…

Especially for you KEL #47, I know you have waited for an opportunity for so long. And this is your platform for you to shine. Do your best ya!!

Lastly, I would like to dedicate the following song to all of ya….i love ya!!!

Good Bye My Love

Good Bye My Love

我的星途再见 (Say goodbye to my stardom)

Good-bye my love

相见不知哪一天 (Don’t know when can I see you again)

我把一切给了你(I had given you my everything)

希望你要珍惜(Hope you can precious it)

不要辜负我的真情意(Don’t let me down)

Good-bye my love

我的星途 再见 (say goodbye to my stardom)

Good-bye my love

从此和你分离 (forever I will separate with you)

我会永远永远爱你在心里 (I will always love you)

希望你不要把我忘记(Hope you are not forgetting me)

我永远怀念你温柔的情(I will always remember your tenderness)

怀念你热红的心(Remember your fire fighting heart)

怀念你甜蜜的吻(Remember your kiss)

怀念你那醉人的歌声(Remember your nice singing)

怎能忘记这段情(How can I forget)

我的爱(My Love)

再见(Good bye)

不知哪日再相见(Don’t know when can I see you again)

我永远怀念你温柔的情(I will always remember your tenderness)

怀念你热红的心(Remember your fire fighting heart)

怀念你甜蜜的吻(Remember your kiss)

怀念你那醉人的歌声(Remember your nice singing)

怎能忘记这段情(How can I forget)

我的爱(My Love)

我相信(I believe)

总有一天能再见(I will see you again)

StarCeleb 1st Episode - Indonesian??

Yes…at least until today, now at this moment, I didn’t receive any sms or msn from friends saying that: hey girl, why you look so ‘liong’(meaning that I look super out dated in fashion) inTV…or some my friends said that: hey girl, the judge said your foundation didn’t suit your skin tone…and they also said that they believed you bought the foundation from Indonesia…..

And I was like…OH MY GOD!!!

Well, honestly, I did look ‘liong’ perhaps…

Err, my foundation not suits me…ya…I agree when I saw my picture that I captured on that day…

But 1 thing I want to correct is the foundation that I applied was Maybelline Foundation… haha:)

Luckily I didn’t able to watch that show on last Sunday due to some engagements…

Well, this week I may needa conitue working on my system design document which I needa submit by the end of Monday….

However, friends for those who sms or msn, thanks for your concern…I know u guys are not teasing me la…haha….but just a word of concern…really appreciate it…

Yaya…today already Friday….

Do catch me on TV this coming Sunday(23rd September 2007), 6pm on NTV7….this episode will talk about our 1st road show in The Curve which you will see me in Summer Wear…Come on friends, this is my first time wearing summer wear in public u know…haha…so must watch…

Friends, don’t only watch you know…also have to vote for me ya….

How to vote leh…?

Simple la….just take out your mobile phone…..

Type:

my11138

eg: my111 giordano 38

then send to 33365….

Do check the list of merchant code in www.mystyle.com.my

Vote for me and get back a mobile vouncher yo…

Vote vote vote ya…

Haha….

(P/S: hopefully I won’t look liong in the coming episode…haha)

StarCeleb Promotional Appearance

Date: 8th September 2007
Time: 8pm onwards
Venue: BED

I was having a good time there especially meeting up with the other StarCelebs. It had been about 1 month we all had been rested after the last StarCeleb road show in Times Square.

Take a good look some pictures I took that day.

Catch me on TV for the 1st episode of StarCeleb this Sunday, 16th September 2007, 6pm

才华洋溢出新秀2007 - StarSearch 2007

因为马来西亚明星偶像，我们认识了对方。也因此这班讲好听是有梦想的人，讲不好听是发明星梦，一点也不切实际的人结伴参加了由新加坡Channel 8举办的才华洋溢出新秀试镜活动。

他们这伙人来自马来西亚北，南，中部：北方有槟城的嘉洋，南部有美丽漂亮的雪婷，当然也少不了中部的演技派人马子豪和我本人。哈哈！请不要怀疑，他们都是明星偶像无缘进军20强的人马！

如果你有注意到：在图中间有个国杰，真的没想到会在试镜时碰到他。

因此，我们组成了-Malaysian Famous Five, 简称为M5！

当天会场并非我们想象的人潮汹涌，所以我们很快的结束了本身的试镜活动。

试镜期间，有关当局要求我们在第一个环节的时候演戏，剧情是新传媒的一些剧本片段，然后第二个环节就是才华表演，任你发挥。

当然，身材很赞的嘉洋 Raynard就表演了他最拿手的嘻哈舞；演技一流的子豪 Kel也表演了一段男女相声；大方可爱的雪婷Snow和又高又帅的国杰 Randy也有了一段精湛的才华表演；当然我-泽枫 Andrea也展出她独一无二主持的能力。

经过一轮试镜后，唯有嘉洋 Raynard还另外被照相和访问。那时，我想他很大机会被录取。

两个星期后，我的手机简讯铃声想起，是嘉洋 Raynard传来的喜讯。他被新加坡那儿录取了成为马来西亚代表，二十强之一。这个比赛不简单。因为有关当局会在五个区域：新加坡，马来西亚，上海，香港和台湾选出二十强，然后这二十强将会集合在新加坡比赛。马来西亚只选了四个代表，而是嘉洋 Raynard是其中之一。

虽然嘉洋 Raynard暂时会单飞，M5其他成员还是会祝福他在新加坡凯旋归来，为大马争光！

嘉洋 Raynard，要加油噢！我们支持你！

M5其他成员还是会向梦想前进，我们还是不会放过任何试镜活动！

因为我本人很相信：只要目标在，路就不会消失！

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*献给M5的每一个成员：*

* *

* 豪杰五摆 *
* 扬名四海 *
* 风雨不改 *

* 雪中不骇 *

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特别鸣谢：

M5经理人兼摄影师 Sam Yap-谢谢他为我们的组合打点一切，也为我们拍了好多好赞的照片。

M5子豪 Kel -谢谢你告诉了M5其他成员关于试镜活动的资料。

更多图片：

http://merrypippin.blogs.friendster.com/photos/starsearch_2007/index.html

http://raynardkjy.blogs.friendster.com/photos/singapore_star_search_200/index.html

CLEO 2007年度杰出青年奖 - CLEO Young Achievers Award 2007

(From left to right: Me together with Lynett Ow-the editor of CLEO Magazine; Jessie-CEO of Malaysian Today; Nazura-owner of Manggis Production; Ester Cheah-National Bowler)

(From left to right: Me with Saer Ze- Singer, Songwriter, and Producer; Elynn and Akmar-known as the millionaire sisters; Dina-Malaysian Idol Season 1 Runner Up)

(From left to right: Set up, the achievers, Alex-Clinique Skin Specialist)

Thanks to CLEO and CLINIQUE for granting me an opportunity to attend the Young Achievers Award 2007 last Saturday in Prince Hotel. I was having splendid time there and the most precious thing was I got a chance to meet up with the young achievers. Note that the BRUNCH in Prince Hotel was delicious! Check out the 1st picture, which was the event set up.

Every one of the achievers has their own 3 steps to become successful and who they are now. See picture 2, the achievers were on stage. I was seated together with Saer Ze, a lovely lady who is only 25 years old and she is a Singer, Songwriter, and Producer, yet now she is a fashion boutique owner. Her passion in music inspires me a lot. And she is a fun-going person. We had a good time together.

I had a chance to mingle around with the other achievers as well. Still, Dina (the 1st Malaysian Idol Runner Up) was cute and friendly. And I like her smile and I can feel the genuine in her. She was with her manager that time. Besides, I also manage to do a little chit chat with Elynn(or more known as the millionaire sisters), Ester Cheah(the national bowler), Nazura(owner of Manggis Production) and Jessie(CEO of Malaysian Today).

Not forgetting that there was a beauty session with Alex(CLINIQUE Skin Specialist) which was very informative especially for a girl like me who never touches make up and facial stuff. I learnt a lot especially how to keep my skin in a good shape and of course how to make up. To be frank, last time I always thought that putting up all the facial cream and make up are something very troublesome and yet it takes time. However, after the session, I found a way to maintain the good features of my skin and also how to put on make up. I just realized that make up is not something difficult. Just like what Alex said: there is no UGLY lady but there is only LAZY lady. Haha..

Once again, I would like to congratulate the achievers. Note that you can have more information about the 8 Young Achievers in CLEO May issue. Looking at the achievers, I know I also will achieve my DREAM as well.

Everyone has his or her reason to be successful. Every success comes from the initial DREAM that lies within. I have my DREAM as well. For me, DREAM is something achievable as long as you believe it.

闪耀之星试镜活动 - Shining Star Audition

继明星偶像试镜活动过后呢，我以回到我的工作岗位，又在开始忙碌生活。一向乏味的生活，自明星偶像过后呢，又增添了几分色彩，因为我终于认识了一班跟我一样热爱演戏，热爱舞台，热爱戏剧等的朋友。真的应该感恩上帝。在这之前，自己的生活圈子都没有一个朋友是跟自己志同道合的。哈！

After StarIdol audition, I backed to my work, started my busy life again. My life was busy and yet boring. However, after StarIdol Audition, there was more color that touched my life. It was due to I met a bunch of people who likes drama, who likes to be on stage, who likes acting etc. I should thank god for granting me all this. Previously, there was no one who was similar interest with me. Haha!

好啦！就在一个风和日丽的下午，当我正忙到不可开交的时候，突然就收到一个十分振奋我心的简讯。哇劳也！又有试镜活动！哈哈！我不管三七二十一还是三八二十四，吃了午餐回来公司的第一件事不是做应该完成的工作，而是马上就跑上网：http://www.shiningstar.com.my/, 去看有关试镜的细节。哈哈！过后呢，一向做事不在犹豫，马上行动，又死鬼酱八的我，马上把简讯统统传给我那班志同道合的朋友。讯息才出去不久，哇劳也，我的那老爷电话响个不停，响到就快卡住了。我也不知什么时候变成整个试镜活动的顾问，去解决我这班朋友的疑问。

Well, in a great sunny evening, when I was super duper busy, all in a sudden, I received a SMS that exciting me. Wah lau eh! There was another audition! Haha! I didn’t care whether what was it, after lunch, my first thing to do wasn’t completing the task I supposed to complete but browsing through www.shiningstar.com.my, scrutinized the audition T&C up to down. Haha! Right after I knew all the information, always to be ‘Just do it!’ my style, I SMS all my friends about the audition. Wahl au eh! I just sent the SMS, my mobile phone rang like crazy, rang till hanged! All calls were regarding the audition, suddenly I felt myself was a CONSULTANT of the audition, answering questions from my friends.

好啦，到了试镜当天，其实也没什么准备。我只知道，我要表演的就是主持。既然在明星偶像，裁判都说我是主持的料子。我当然就要耍宝啊！不要想歪！耍我最宝贵的才华-主持！

Well, basically I didn’t really prepare for the audition. I just knew that I would do some hosting stuff. Since StarIdol judges already commented that I was good in hosting, sure I would perform my best act-HOSTING!

一上台，裁判还以为我是一位男的。因为我妈啦，为我取了一个那么男性化的名字。哈！但我还瞒欣赏我的名字的-因为够特别：沼泽里的枫树。哈！

Once I got on stage, judges thought I was a guy. Because of my mum la, named such a boyish name for me. Ha! However, I am quite proud with my name, because it is too special: in Chinese it means that the Canada leave tree is growing from a muddy place. Ha!

当然啦，才华洋溢的我又闯进第一关，在等着第二关的试镜活动！

Of course, the talented me had went through the first round, and will wait for the second round auditioning!

其实我真的很想跟我身边的朋友分享的一点就是：你知道吗？在你正在追求梦想的那一刻，那每一分每一秒，是多么的兴奋！人一定要有梦！因为人因梦想而伟大！虽然只是一个小小的试镜活动，当我听到观众的掌声和笑声的那一刻！我是多么的满足。坦白讲，我是一个超级享受掌声的人，就算我讲得不动听，我也有本事要你为我鼓掌。哈！请不要怀疑，我就是一个那么实事求是的一个人。我根本就不可能讲得不好。所以你一定要为我鼓掌。有人问：你未免太自信了吧？我笑答：你不自信，难道自卑么？

Actually there is a point I would like to share with you, friends: Do you know that how excited when every moment every seconds you are actually chasing your dream? Human must have DREAM! That’s why human is born GREAT comparing other creatures. Although it was only a small audition, I was just over satisfied and overjoyed when I heard applause from the crowd. Honestly, I am a type of person who enjoys applause. Even though I am a bad speakers, I also able to make you clap foe me. Ha! Do believe that I am a type of person who is seeking truth. And the truth is how possible I will speak unwell? Therefore, you must clap for me. Once there was somebody asking me: Aren’t you feel you are a bit over confidence? I smiled and said: If not over confidence, then is over looking down to myself?

各位朋友，你有多久没尝试过追梦的过程？你又有多久没尝试过那所谓的满足感？你想要享受的满足感？

Friends, how long you didn’t enjoyed the dream chasing process? How long you didn’t enjoy your satisfaction?

我不敢担保我是否会成为明嘴，但只要一天有着那个信念，梦想还是有机会成真的！

I can’t guarantee whether I will become a super HOST. However, if I still hold my belief, this dream will come true!

有人告诉我，你以为要做明嘴那么容易吗？要红那么容易吗？你凭什么？真是马不知脸长！哈！(应该有一些朋友明白我在讲什么) 。我笑答：要是你想也不敢想，梦想就更加不会实现，我或许脸长，但脸长夜会有人欣赏啊！

Once somebody told me: Do you think it’s easy to become a super host? You think is easy to become popular? Who do you think you are? Horse doesn’t know its face is long. Ha! (Somebody shall get what it means). I laughed and said: if you dare not to dream, forever you will never realize your dream, my face my long, but there must be somebody who is looking for long face person!

曾经有个很成功的人告诉我：有梦的人是人，没梦的人也是人，只不过跟死人没什么分别。那时我年幼，听了哭笑不得，也不是很明白，但现在我懂了！

Once a very successful person told me: Those who has dream is human, those without dream also human, but they are just no different with the dead man. That time I was still young, after listening, I didn’t know how should I react, till now, I fully understood what he meant!

我会祝福我自己，我会自己圆自己的梦，当然我也会祝福所有有梦的人，愿你们心想事成！

I will wish myself, I will realize my dream, of course I will also wish those who has dream, wishing you all the best, may your dreams come true!

(注：我把我部分表演录了下来，要看就请点击：Note: I recorded part of my audition video, you can also view it in http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJP65de2bw0 )

明星梦 - Becoming Stars

歌儿也有得唱：一人有一个梦想。。哈！相信每个人都有自己的梦想，但有多少人有真正为自己的梦想付诸行动呢？有些人用口讲，有些人不敢想，有些人敢讲敢想，但却没付出应该付出的。你又是那一类呢？

我有两位朋友毕生的梦想就是要成为明星。他们真的是有为自己梦想付出行动的典范。

(左图：迈向梦想就有如迈向自己的康庄大道，a SUNNY WAY)

其实我才认识他们也只有那短短的两个星期，但他俩对于梦想的热诚足以震撼我心。他俩都是大我一岁的双鱼座和狮子座。(注1：感觉上用星座来做他们的代号会比较贴切) 。我自己本身也是在明星偶像试镜活动时遇上这两位朋友。想必也会成为我的好朋友。双鱼座是一个多才多艺的人，能跳，能唱，能演。当然唱歌是他最大的热诚。(注2：他曾经是两届大马偶像的75强噢！) 。狮子座也不逊色，一样可以载歌载舞，还能载演呢，整体看来还有明星相呢。(注3：他曾经是 Born Star的得奖者噢！)

他俩最震撼我的就是他们是那种真的为了梦想而到处寻找机会的人。那里有类似试镜活动，不管路途有多遥远，他们都一定会出席。为得就是不要放过每一个可以出线的机会。就有如今天，他俩竟然从老远的槟城乘4个小时多的巴士，为的就是要出席一个银行广告招募演员的试镜活动。还记得那天狮子座告诉我他已买了巴士车票，我真的给他吓坏了。我还告诉他。这都不知是什么试镜活动，值得你从老远的槟城过来吗？他告诉我：只要是机会，他都会试！

虽然他们花了四小时多，换回来的是每人两分钟多一点点的试镜，还得请我这位亮丽的司机小姐吃午餐，感觉上有一点点不值得，他俩尤其是狮子座似乎都不会放弃每一个试镜的机会。哈！坦白讲，我真的为他俩的精神，不屈不挠的热诚致万分的敬意。你们真的太棒了！加油！

(花絮1：当我正载他们往试镜目的地时，讨厌的臭轮胎竟然爆了，还好我当机立断截了一辆得士把他俩送去目的地。要不然因为我而令他俩迟到而试不到镜，我岂不是成了千古罪人。哈！
花絮2：有位面貌‘特出’ 的女孩试镜后，主办单位有拿她身体上的尺寸。双鱼座事后祟祟念：“为何他们没拿我的尺寸，我老远来到吉隆坡试镜，你竟然不拿我的尺寸。” 搞到我们哭笑不得！)

坦白讲：很多人都在追求或等待机会来圆自己的明星梦。也有很多人说发明星梦很不实际。
对我而言，世上没什么是实际不实际的，我也是发明星梦份子啊。我超爱演戏，超爱舞台。我常幻想自己将会是奥斯卡影后，金马奖影后等，因为我超爱演戏，我相信自己有一定的实力！何谓梦想：不是只在做梦时想噢！

人因梦想而伟大。但我不会等，当然半途出现贵人或伯乐将会把这梦想之路事半功倍，然而，我亦相信与其我去等待机会，不如我努力的去创造机会给自己！

梦想不是用口讲，而是真正要付出一定的行动，去实现它。

记得师傅曾经跟我讲过：“我们不可忘记我们的梦想，好多时候，在遇到一定的挑战时，很多人会延迟自己应达成的目标或试图妥协自己的梦想，记得，梦想是不能妥协的，就如你讲要在一年里要开宝马，就是一年里开宝马！”

师傅，我会牢牢记得的！追梦者，我会深深祝福你，加油！

2007马来西亚明星偶像 StarIdol Malaysia- 我一路走来的过程 My Journey

我一直以来都很热爱表演，热爱舞台。我不断寻找机会，平台，以让自己好好在台上表演，以让别人感受我在台上的风采。也正因如此，我参加了马来西亚第一次举办的明星偶像。原本，我也没抱着太大期望，就是不想让自己有遗憾，所以我去了试镜。不懂是我的诚意追求梦想的意愿感动了上天，抑或我真的可以演戏，我成功闯进了第二关。犹记得，在第一关卡的试镜时，我是饰演一个疯狂追星妹，我也充分发挥了我自己在这一方面的天分。因为我呢，有时就好像傻大姐那样。哈！评审说我的自我介绍像辩论，整体看来很老江湖。衣着打扮也很老江湖，必须改进。还好我一贯的作风就是我无任欢迎别人对我的意见，不管是好的贬的，我都会打开心窗，一一接受并研究那里可以加以改进。或许这也是一个做人瞒成功的地方吧。

当时我闯进了第二关，兴高采烈的把消息告知我最疼爱的双亲，怎知双亲的反应并不是那么正面，也表示娱乐圈并不是好混。还好从小相依为命的弟弟还表示支持，加上一些好朋友的鼓励，令我更有勇气走下去。

由于我对衣着打扮没那么深的见解，因为平时的我就是职业女性典型式打扮。所以在第二圈比赛的前两天，赶紧拉着好友为我塑造剧本里我所饰演的JANE的形像。JANE外表成熟高贵, 充满女人风情，在性格上呢则是倔强好胜, 骄傲,霸道。那么坦白讲，无论是剧情或角色，都瞒与我相似。除了一点，就是我没那么霸道。

大从闯过第一个关卡，我都很期待第二关卡的到来。终于，我结束了明星偶像的第二圈比赛。疲累的我，刚卸下脸上的浓妆，享受了十分舒服的热浴，但还是睡不着。想想刚才评审说我脸上的妆像发了霉的巧克力，然而，我一点都没被打击到。反之，我瞒享受评审称赞我很有天分当一个主持人。还有评审也说我在打破烟灰冈的临场表现是一件可喜的事。哈。我在演戏时打破一个玻璃烟灰冈就是我整个演出的经典。其实呢，那个动作是我在临场表演时加上去的。因为当时当我拿起烟灰冈打昏了那个男演员的时候，我就想应该怎样处置那个烟灰冈，又没有可能在情绪那么高昂的时候，把烟灰冈放在地上或摆回原位，所以就干脆把它当作不小心掉在地上了。

那晚，我还是很期待个天的赛果。但我告诉自己，既然尽了全力，无论入选20强与否，我都会坦然面对。我想：“若我侥幸入围了，我会感恩，若我落选了，我也没遗憾，反之我会感谢上天已给了我这个机会，或许自己还没准备好，等我准备好了，上天自有安排。”

我告诉自己，无论如何，我还是会无时无刻还是会怀念一路走来的过程。。。
终于到了成绩揭晓的那天。我也没抱着太大的希望。毕竟我也懂这是明星偶像比赛，无论演技多好多棒，多有实力，但没有好的面孔，机会仍然还是五十五十。

就在成绩公布前，哈，我就跟其他明星偶像参赛者打成一片。有槟城的啦，还有柔佛的，当然也少不了吉隆坡的。他们的嘻哈声足以震动这个STUDIO. 当然多嘴的我又刚好碰上了槟城来的荣显。二人一见如故，说个七呖呱啦。弄得差不多1/4场人笑个不停。各位朋友，如果你在节目上看到这个场面，别怀疑，这二人就是此二人。哈。

当然成绩揭晓了，我没入围。与我对戏的夥伴-一粒米也没入围。坦白讲，我的确有些失望。但在后来，当评审，工作人员，一些演舞台剧参赛的朋友，还有其他参赛者所给的评语，都以证明我是有实力的。我总算有些安慰。

明星梦结束了。又回到了平日的生活。

我要借此谢谢一些在整个过程中为我加油打起的人。

爸，妈：
虽然你们从来没支持过，你们也没强烈反对。谢谢你们让我参赛。

弟：
是你最支持我了。姐让你失望了。但姐还是会向梦想前进。

Bryant，进民，Ivy, Gallen：
谢谢你们陪我练习，陪我做Role Play. Bryant, 你的导演技术还不赖。

Elaine 大姐，雪盈：
谢谢你们在我演出的服装还有整体的包装给予的意见。

征豪师傅:
解谢你帮我寻找专师交我演戏。也谢谢你一直给机会我，要不然我绝对不会拥有今天主持的水准。

Jason:
虽然只跟你通了一通电话，但我真的学到了很多演戏技巧。

Tiffany:
谢谢你那天陪了我一个晚上。

一粒米：
与你排档演戏是我的福份。谢谢你在比赛前一天给予的指导。很开心认识你，希望可以在与你合作。记得有Kalefe演叫我。

荣显：
想不到能与你一见如故。好开心认识你。那天我真的玩到傻了。

嘉洋，诗蕾，雪婷，Sharen, Kel, Amelia, Annie:
很开心认识你们。真的。。

人因梦想而伟大，朋友们，加油！