I am not good in any sports, but I do like to watch sports, especially Olympic games. I am lucky enough to watch the full coverage of the London Summer Olympics 2012 and the Sochi Winter Olympics 2014, courtesy of BBC. Watching the winter Olympics especially, is an eye opener for me. There are sports like bobsleigh, luge, skeletons, speed skating, moguls, curling etc, I couldn't imagine these could be listed as part of the games (not in a bad way). Curling especially, I have a good laugh every time watching it. I just couldn't get why the players are shouting at the stone, or the way the stone moves, and the sweeping guys. Oh gosh, good fun, I know I am gonna miss watching the sports.
At Wembley Arena watching the Badminton, 28-July-2012
Jeez, he is tall. At the Olympic Park, 28-July-2012
At Greenwich Equestrian Park (5-August-2012)
One of my favourite act in Sochi 2014 Opening Ceremony (courtesy of BBC)
I find it very inspiring (at least it has deeply inspired me), how the athletes get through to the hurdles to achieve their goals. I remembered the times watching some of the sports (Badminton and Equestrian) live in the London Summer Olympics 2012. The whole thing is just very positive, providing us endless positive energy that we desperate need to get on with our life. Nothing comes easy. My reflection watching the games are: 1) have I done enough to achieve my goal? and 2) do I really want my dream bad enough?
I think I know what I need to do next. I hope you have enjoyed the games as much as I did :)
Sliding doors - I personally quite agree with the saying 'friends are like sliding door'. To be precise, I would say people who come into your life are like sliding door. Sometimes you just wouldn't know when it will start, when it will just fade away.
Sometimes when you feel a group of people that you meet can really be your true friends, then due to the split opinions and different philosophy o life, it fades away.
Same as if for lover. Sometimes you meet someone and when you think this is the person who you can really spend your life with, then it is finished.
So, why bothers? Since this is not something you could control. There is no right or wrong, it is just not meant to be..
‘The more I read, the more I confuse, the more I feel like banging my head to the wall?’ This is the comment I got from most of the first year PhD students in my department. Is it really that bad doing a PhD?
Okie, I’d share you my view on this. It is the sixth month I am doing my PhD, I do confusing or conflicting myself most of the time. Especially there are zillion possibilities in research. Especially I am doing social science research, and the ‘experiment’ is not something I can see or grab. Well, experiment is one of the qualitative methods though. I have to use loads of imagination and think how they could work together. Or I should imagine each contributing element is an atom, when atom combines with another atom or molecule, what happens? Set theory and Aristotle’s syllogism guide my way of thinking a lot. Still, you know…’what am I doing?’ is the last thing I usually ask myself after all the literature.
Sometimes I can produce more words, sometimes zero (ssshh, don’t tell my supervisor). Sometimes I would just stare at the screen and have my brain somewhere else thinking sub research topic, day dreaming. Sometimes I couldn’t sleep, as I wish that if I don’t sleep, then tomorrow will never come, and again, what am I doing?
I am almost approaching to the next stage in my life. Most of my friends have married, settle down with their loves one, became parents, owned assets and properties..and ME? Still hanging around, reading, writing, uncertain future.. what am I doing?
I have recently watched a film talking about our life as a PhD. I can feel the movie completely… I feel like I am Cecilia in the movie, what am I doing?
Have also recently attending Chair / Reader / lecturership presentation …Basically these people (Drs, Profs, etc) come in pitching for a job position. It has truly widen my knowledge on what the academic industry is about… I am getting there to know what am I doing…
I think I know what I am doing. I am doing a PhD which provides me the highest level of freedom and space to think in my way and produce something that contributes to knowledge in my way. If you are intrigued about most stuff you see in life, doing a PhD probably is best. I am not those ambitious people, ie: creating a brand new paradigm, developing new theory, creating a new product or a god, or a philanthropist.. I just want to fully utilise my three years to contribute to the society for a better life. Perhaps a tiny weeny piece of work of mine will help changing something in the world in a few, ten, twenty years’ time?
PS: I am tapping hard on the keyboard, people may think that I am busy writing up..haha… I do busy writing up, but writing up a blog post…lol
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